‘I had the perfect life – then both my husbands died’: singer Labi Siffre on love, loss – and happiness

Before assembly Labi Siffre, I'm intrigued by the numerous reactions I get when mentioning his identify. Many individuals I converse to have by no means heard of him. Some bear in mind his 80s anthem One thing Inside So Robust. Others are dimly conscious of a solo profession earlier than that.

After which there are these whose eyes gentle up – those that, like me, regard him as one of many key figures in British pop historical past, and marvel why he’s not celebrated as such. “Labi Siffre’s fingerprints have been on common music for a lot of a long time now,” wrote the digital musician Matthew Herbert in 2012. “However his precise voice is never heard.”

Why is that? Throughout the first half of the Seventies, Siffre launched six solo albums, working effortlessly throughout people, soul, reggae and funk, whereas poetically addressing the political (his songs have tackled warfare veterans, homelessness and faith) and the private (if there's a extra excellent articulation of home bliss than his 75-second music Until Perpetually, I've but to listen to it). It’s not like his profession went underneath the radar – Siffre scored three High 40 hits, with Crying Laughing Loving Mendacity reaching No 11. And it’s not like he’s had no cultural impression since: Insanity did the definitive cowl of his music It Should Be Love, whereas artists together with Kanye West, Jay-Z and Primal Scream have sampled his music. The inordinately catchy riff used on Eminem’s My Identify Is was his. Rod Stewart and Kelis are amongst those that have recorded his music. But his identify nonetheless registers frivolously. A few of his songs don’t even have their lyrics accessible to view on-line.

Within the decade since I found Siffre’s 70s catalogue, I’ve learn tales about how being an brazenly homosexual, black people singer held him again, and the way he was dropped for refusing to remain within the closet. Being cautious of the press, Siffre tends to keep away from interviews. So I used to be thrilled to be granted an viewers at his dwelling and studio in north-east Spain, by way of Zoom, so I may get the complete story.

Siffre performing in the early 70s.
Siffre performing within the early 70s. Photograph: David Redfern/Getty Photos

Bespectacled and looking out remarkably youthful for a 76-year-old – Siffre may simply be mistaken for an educational quite than a musician – his phrases are chosen rigorously, and his solutions lengthen sometimes into emphatic monologues. However he has a poet’s manner with language.

“I used to be remarkably naive,” says Siffre once I ask what the music trade was like within the late 60s. “I went in believing that the music enterprise could be run by – who else? – musicians. However you don’t blame a rattlesnake for biting you. A rattlesnake is a rattlesnake, and also you’re silly to wander round in sandals and no socks in a rattlesnake-infested space.”

Born in 1945 to a Nigerian father and mixed-race mom who refused to “go” as white, Claudius Afolabi Siffre was raised in west London. He says he had already labored out his life plans at an early age. By 11 he knew he needed to “discover somebody and make them love me for the remainder of our lives”; by 13 he had resolved, because of considered one of his 4 brothers’ spectacular document assortment, to develop into a musician. Each of this stuff have been underneath manner earlier than he was 20. Siffre wrote his first music aged 18 and, a yr later in 1964, met Peter John Carver Lloyd; they remained collectively for 48 years, coming into a civil partnership in 2005, till Lloyd’s loss of life in 2013.

After taking part in jazz guitar for a number of years, Siffre introduced his self-titled debut album out in 1970. By his third album – Crying Laughing Loving Mendacity – Siffre’s lyrics have been not written as if for the alternative intercourse. “It occurred to me that I couldn’t do this any extra,” he says. His songs usually are not soapboxes. But usually they specific romantic contentment in such a easy and relatable manner – shared jumpers, ready for phone calls – that simply having a black, homosexual singer carry out them will need to have felt like a political assertion.

“Crucial factor in your life is what occurs at dwelling,” says Siffre. “Many individuals don’t perceive this. It's head and shoulders above every little thing else. And from the second Peter and I met, I by no means took [that love] with no consideration.”

Siffre discovered the music trade stifling. He trusted his administration, however he says their angle was usually: “Are you able to deliver me one thing that I’ve already heard, that has already been successful?” Unsurprisingly, that meant a muted response to the album he’s most pleased with, For the Kids, which tackled mankind’s predilection for self-destruction. “My supervisor on the time stated: ‘Each phrase on the album is true, however individuals don’t need to hear that.’ I believed to myself, I ought to go away these individuals – they don’t perceive what I’m doing. However I knew I may belief them, so I stayed. And so they did a minimum of strive and perceive what I used to be doing, they did make an effort. As a result of I’m not simple … I’m not simple, even for myself!”

Songs on that album reminiscent of Prayer and Let’s Faux had a strident atheist message. Was it courageous to query faith at the moment?

“I don’t suppose I used to be being courageous in any respect,” he says. “I’m not a courageous particular person. Pissed off? Sure! I’ve by no means taken kindly to being bullied.”

Siffre in 1979.
Siffre in 1979. Photograph: United Archives/Getty Photos

Listening to For the Kids once more in recent times, Siffre says he cried, not only for himself but in addition for humanity. “It occurred to me: ‘I want I hadn’t been proper’,” he says. The album was not a industrial success, however Siffre says it’s nonsense that he was dropped due to his sexuality. “No one would have dared say that to me.”

It's maybe stunning that Siffre was so comfy being out. His father was “born in 1900, an upper-middle-class Nigerian man with patriarchal views. He’d warned me about homosexuals in graphic phrases once I was 12 and I bear in mind considering: ‘You’re eight years too late!’”

However then Siffre launched Lloyd to his household. “And it was my father who simply accepted it with out a blink. There’s this garbage about homosexuality being un-African. Bullshit!”

Siffre’s prolific spell ended with 1975’s Completely satisfied. However there was to be a renaissance. Siffre remembers the evening in 1984 he left a pub and headed to his music room. He had just lately watched a documentary on apartheid in South Africa, the place white troopers fired at black civilians, however the music he was about to jot down had a extra private which means too. “I sat down, performed a C chord, threw my head again and sang the primary two strains of One thing Inside So Robust. I realised I used to be writing about my life as a homosexual man and I discovered myself crying.”

That music reached No 4 within the charts when it was lastly launched in 1987, and was subsequently coated by Kenny Rogers (and, let’s not neglect, Barry from EastEnders in the course of the 2014 World Indoor Bowls Championship). It turned an anti-apartheid anthem. Siffre carried out it in Trafalgar Sq. for Nelson Mandela’s birthday – after being advised that he was not the form of artist who would “slot in” on the larger Wembley live performance. “My supervisor was outraged. Incandescent with rage. And I used to be on the couch discovering it hysterically humorous. That didn’t shock me in any respect.”

There was additionally a 90s/00s revival for Siffre. He didn’t know a lot about sampling when Eminem’s individuals obtained in contact to request the riff from I Obtained The … (Beck had been planning to make use of it for his post-Odelay comeback single earlier than Eminem beat him to it). At first he turned them down. “I obtained pissed off with the ‘faggots’ and ‘hoes’ [in Eminem’s lyrics]. As a result of it’s simply lazy, cowardly writing. It wasn’t the language that bothered me. I identified that my first poetry assortment was known as Nigger. What I cared about was attacking the oppressed quite than the culprits. Now, some will say, within the context of that music, that’s not precisely what was taking place. Nevertheless, that was my first response to it.”

At the South Africa ‘Freedom Day’ concert in Trafalgar Square in 2001.
On the South Africa Freedom Day live performance in Trafalgar Sq. in 2001. Photograph: Dave Benett/Getty Photos

Siffre signed off on the pattern after they despatched him a censored “clear” model, not realising that he was additionally permitting its use on the choice variations. However having grown up with trendy jazz and the Nice American Songbook, he's a minimum of content material along with his songs being reinterpreted. “That’s what musicians are alleged to do,” he says. Moreover, he was by no means unsure of his music’s longevity.

“I used to be introduced as much as have low vanity,” he says. “I grew up being advised by society that as a gay I used to be a foul, depraved, evil particular person. Nevertheless, on the identical time, I’m somebody who may be very a lot conscious of my very own genius.”

He bursts out laughing at this. “That’s a joke! It’s a joke! However by my first album I knew I used to be writing good-quality work. And when issues haven't been as common as I believed they need to have been, I all the time felt that, finally, they'd be recognised as an excellent music. As a result of an excellent music by no means dies.”

Given his music’s lifespan, does he not really feel that his creative popularity ought to be stronger?

“I might say I’m not excellent at promoting myself,” he admits. “I grew up believing that actual males, no matter actual males are, don’t boast. These days, all people boasts. Folks will truly come as much as you and inform you that they’re compassionate! However I don’t have a look at it like I used to be held again or that I ought to have been a famous person. Though it’s tough for individuals to imagine, being wealthy and well-known by no means occurred to me in my plan. I realised by the point of my first album that I used to be not within the mainstream. So all I truly needed was for my work to be helpful. And For the Kids made me realise that, effectively, the explanation why you’re on the skin is since you’re truly attempting to be helpful.”

Maybe one cause Siffre appears content material along with his standing is that music all the time got here second to the nice love of his life, which is love itself: not simply Peter but in addition a “third husband”, Rudolf “Ruud” Cornelis Arnoldus van Baardwijk, who joined the pair within the mid-90s. The three of them shared an idyllic-sounding life – for a while – in a home midway up a mountain in south Wales.

“I went on the lookout for love,” he says. “However it was solely once I met Ruud and we turned three that I finished trying totally. For practically 16 years the three of us lived collectively in a menage a trois. And I realised I’d made the household that I’d been attempting to make for the entire of my life.”

‘I’ve always taken love very seriously’ … Siffre with his partners Rudolf van Baardwijk and Peter Lloyd.
‘I’ve all the time taken love very significantly’ … Siffre along with his companions Rudolf van Baardwijk and Peter Lloyd. Photograph: Courtesy of Labi Siffre

He continues: “I had the right life. After which, within the house of two years, six months and 28 days, they each died.”

The exactness of this quantity is hanging. “I’ve all the time taken love very significantly,” he says softly. “Not simply what it's, however how disastrous it might be to be with out it.”

Siffre spent a very long time as Peter’s carer earlier than he died. A stroke in 1998 had left him paralysed down the left facet of his physique.

“I used to be somewhat aggravated to seek out that some individuals anticipated me to proceed with my ‘good’ profession,” says Siffre. “I couldn’t perceive how they may probably suppose that that’s what I might do. Not out of any noble emotions. We had to be collectively. Easy as that. And that’s what it was for 14 years. Nothing noble about it in any respect.”

To have two companions die in such a brief house of time will need to have been a horrendous quantity of grief to cope with, I say.

He pauses. “That’s one thing I’m nonetheless …” Then he trails off. “That’s one thing that I’m nonetheless ... I don’t know what the phrase is.”

Processing?

“No, it’s not a matter of processing. Affected by? I can solely say it fairly inadequately. Sure, it is extremely tough.”

I ponder if right now’s world is healthier positioned to understand Labi Siffre, each as a masterly musician and a trailblazer for black and homosexual individuals. Final yr, when Delight was cancelled because of the pandemic, he quietly launched a reworked model of his music (Love Is Love Is Love) Why Isn’t Love Sufficient? An hour-long BBC documentary about his life is predicted to air in early 2022 and there are even rumours of a brand new album too, though he’s somewhat coy about that. “I'm engaged on … sure, a challenge … that’s true,” he smiles.

It will be a splendid factor certainly if, sooner or later, extra eyes would begin to gentle up on the point out of this magnificent songwriter’s identify.

  • think about … Labi Siffre: This Is My Track will air on BBC One and BBC iPlayer on Monday 14 February, 10.35pm

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