Constructing a Nervous System review – a deeply personal account of black female identity

Margo Jefferson is the uncommon memoirist who's at all times daring the reader to maintain up. She’d fairly recall her fleeting impressions as a substitute of recounting a scene and the sheer quantity of her allusions to Twentieth-century Americana – she labored for years on the tradition desk of the New York Instances – casts an instantaneous spell. In her 2015 e-book, Negroland, she discovered a type that held collectively a portrait of her childhood in a rarefied black enclave in Fifties Chicago, and her early encounters with feminism as a younger lady in New York, interspersed with musings on Little Girls, James Baldwin and The Ed Sullivan Present. The e-book was alternately categorised as social historical past and memoir. The standard Jefferson paragraph, zigzagging by way of completely different views, freely borrowing and repurposing different writers’ sentences and tune lyrics, invariably jogs my memory of one thing one character tells one other in Italo Calvino’s 1972 novel Invisible Cities: “It isn't the voice that instructions the story: it's the ear.”

Setting up a Nervous System begins with Jefferson reporting a foul dream: she is alone on a stage and “I prolonged my arm – no, flung, hurled it out – pointed an accusatory finger” at herself. You sense immediately that Jefferson’s intention is to not inform a narrative, however to relay an interior tempest on the web page. Within the subsequent few pages, she quotes from a letter she wrote in 2018 to her lifeless mom, rewrites strains from an Ethel Waters tune and confesses to secretly idolising mid-century black male singers due to their “immersive lure of hazard and dominance”. She bristles at classifying these psychological leaps as both criticism (“too graciously incantatory”) or memoir (“commemoratively grand”): “Name it temperamental autobiography.”

Jefferson’s formal ambition is akin to that of the “essay movie” – I’m considering right here of Chris Marker’s Sans Soleil (1982) and Orson Welles’s F for Pretend (1973) – the place the necessity to concurrently convey one’s adrift ideas and inmost exigencies produces a marvellous density. Her challenge is, on the one hand, aggressively public spirited: a resettling of “American tradition”, in her phrases. She explores how her creative sensibility was formed by an imaginative affinity with those that “gained’t think about you”: white novelists who have been condescending or detached to black girls (Willa Cather, Margaret Mitchell), black showmen with a historical past of abuse or apathy in the direction of their feminine counterparts (Ike Turner, Bud Powell).

However the phrases of Jefferson’s inquiry are private. Simply as Negroland was inflected with the tragedy of dropping the milieu of her childhood, after the demise of her mom, Setting up a Nervous System is haunted by the reminiscence of Jefferson’s older sister, Denise, a dancer who died in 2010. You'll be able to image Denise within the room when Jefferson remembers watching Ella Fitzgerald sweat by way of her TV appearances within the Sixties or whereas describing her teenage impressions of Gone With the Wind: “We feared so many issues, Denise and I. We knew they have been lesser issues. They didn’t belong to the world of slavery. They belonged to the world of cautious privilege-parsing equality.”

A long time later, Jefferson is not sure in regards to the privilege-parsing equality of her adolescence. She imagines an alternate ending to the gratuitous climax of Uncle Tom’s Cabin; she rephrases the well-known opening paragraph of Janet Malcolm’s The Journalist and the Assassinto provide you with a credo for critics. Black feminine athletes arouse a wierd defensiveness in Jefferson, for she realises that she has “by no means labored as laborious at something” because the athletes have by way of their adolescence.

In one of many e-book’s extra delicate moments, Jefferson finds herself pitying Condoleezza Rice, who served because the US secretary of state throughout George W Bush’s presidency and was an advocate of the 2003 invasion of Iraq. Describing her working relationship with Bush, Rice as soon as remarked that she was “internalising his world”. Jefferson recognises an identical impulse in her personal obsession with white celebrities, her preoccupation with the sense of entitlement unavailable to her as a black lady within the US. “They have been fashions I may imitate, adapt or make some extent of rejecting,” she writes.

Jefferson says she feels disenchanted “in a lifetime of studying white writers” by their incuriosity about black Individuals. I share that disappointment, as a result of I too have skilled one thing related whereas studying up to date American writers. At the same time as you might be thrilled by Jefferson’s admissions and ambivalences, and brought in by the vary of her whims and passions, you'll be able to’t assist however surprise why it's simply “American tradition” that she desires to resettle, why her consideration to the methods by which whiteness corrupts with the “expedient innocence of privilege” doesn’t bear in mind the truth that American omniscient narrators, each white and non-white, in fiction in addition to nonfiction, repeatedly fail to acknowledge the existence of lives exterior their nation’s borders.

Very similar to the youthful Jefferson, the non-American reader should study to think about somebody who “gained’t think about you”. Jefferson riffs on WEB Du Bois’s landmark 1903 textual content The Souls of Black Folks, however Du Bois’s invocation of “double consciousness” was laced with the sense of a world past the Atlantic Ocean and he ceaselessly expressed solidarity with anti-colonial struggles elsewhere. As of late, many non-white American writers protest towards home injustices, however they not often breach the solipsism of empires.

Then once more, if Jefferson have been extra worldly – much less provincially American – maybe she wouldn’t have been as attuned to the distinction between the token black feminine characters in Gone With the Wind and Uncle Tom’s Cabin or retained the flexibility to equally respect Erroll Garner’s blithe exuberance and Bud Powell’s darker melodies. It's unimaginable to not be stirred by her odes to fellow black American strivers of excellence, their dedication to “show our price to the world”.

Setting up a Nervous System by Margo Jefferson is revealed by Granta (£16.99). To assist the Guardian and Observer order your copy at guardianbookshop.com. Supply prices might apply

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